This video is made by using a formula of a Strange Attractor - a very simple fractal. In this case a five-dimensional attractor.


Have fun! :-)

I'll still be here when you find the time to use me ;-)

Once a week we host a meeting at our home, where everyone is invited to participate in an "evolutionary conversation", "Bohm-dialogue" or whatever we choose to call it. The concept is simple: One hour, where we begin with a short meditation and then try to talk without (too much) egos - just trying in community to get where the energy and flow brings us.
We have done so for half a year, and now we wanted to try something new. We would try to see how it would be to "cook without egos" - no plans, no expectations, no talking (even not non-verbally) - just some ingredients and the common energy and flow.

It was a lot of fun. Every time I cook, I have a plan. This time I had absolutely no idea where we were going. Each of us had bought a few ingredients. Potatos, cappage, sugar, eggs etc.
Each of started our individual projects, but it soon became clear that we had to take part in each oterhs projects. And drop the ownership of any projects.

We ended up with a fantastic meal. Pictures here:

When everything is uncertain. When I have thrown all the balls high up in the air, knowing that it is impossible ti catch them all by myself. When I have no clue what the next moment will bring, but I cannot wait for it to happen.

When in bliss, I'm in a state just beside the path, refueling the vehicle. But bliss is not the path.

The sounds in my  mind, no doubt. They have guided me and have been the most important factor in any major decision, I have made so far.
Being a classical composer on the edge if avantgarde, I have sought to express these sounds, as I know that they have something imnoportant to tell - at least important for myself.
As I have managed to create a piece of music, that has been - at best - a pale reflection of these sounds, the sounds have changed in form, timbre and character.

Sometimes I forget that the path is the goal - and in those moments I also forget that there are no place better to be than right here, right now.
When I think about where the path is taking me, instead of the view from here, I find difficulties.

Beauty is a label, constructed by the mind -  just as "ugly". I experience beauty when I manage to let let things be as they are, when the mind stops labeling my experiences with "beautiful", "good", "bad" etc.
The mind is busy running the labeling business, but when it pauses, I am able to feel the universal love. Thats beauty.

I welcome fear, like an old friend. My fears show up to tell me stories about myself, stories I haven't wanted to hear so far - but now I'm ready for most  them. Sometimes I give in, but still more often I just listen and learn.

In the part of my conscousness that recognizes that we are one. Or, to be more precise: In experiencing our common consciousness, which of course have known this since since beginning of time that we are one.

One question that often arises when we are talking about tantric relationships and impersonal love goes something like "How do we ensure that sexual spark, when the choice of partner is not based on sexual attraction or falling in love?".
The answer: You do absolutely nothing.
Having sex is like having a conversation. When you start a conversations with a close friend, you don't decide where that talk will take you, or in what form. You simply talk, listen, talk, listen - and the conversation unfolds, sometimes funny, sometimes boring, sometimes enlightening.
When you have sex with you partner, you touch, feel, touch, feel. Same thing. You can decide that "tonight, we will be in the bed together,  nakedly and close". Starting there, you have do drop any expectations about what is to happen, how fast, how hot - if anything at all. But being in that moment, close to a naked person of the opposite sex, something will happen. Believe me.

The extra benefit is that sex can turn out better than any imagination produced by your mind . If you seek sexual pleasure based on your dreams and imagination, the experiences that you will achieve  will  never be better these dreams, because you will compare the reality to your projections. But being in the moment with no script or preoccupation, you might experience an intimacy, togetherness and excitement that you never had imagined possible.